In sickness, or in health. Or on benedryll.

So, I'd really like to not be sick anymore. That'd be great, actually.  I'm a big fan of that idea.
Hives, hives, go away come again another day! (or don't. that's okay too.)

I miss Simpson. I do. I miss all my lovely friends, and I miss the environment of hundreds of people striving after God, even if they make mistakes along the way. Yup. I said it. I actually miss the bubble.

But, ON the up side! I love being home.
Not that I have a single spare moment.
I apologize, my dear friends that I've blown off lately. Its not for lack of love! Its for lack of moments. I've stayed shockingly organized by all accounts I must say. But that doesn't mean I haven't blown off a few people along the way..


Anyway. I love seeing all of you wonderful friends from home. I love having time to read books for fun(!!!!!!).
I love being able to hold my babies.
I love getting 9 hours of sleep.

I LOVE TECHNOLOGY!

Okay, Okay, Okay.
I know that the technological era that we live in is "corrupting the essence of real social interaction" and "eating away at the minds and visual capabilities of our young ones"....or whatever.
But I freaking love having my laptop working again. Just saying.


Ohh. And I love my Daddy (:

Spring Break.

Accomplished:
1. Home
2. Home (Sherwoods)
3. Rabecca Ann Lambert
4. Bridget Marie Lambert
5. Lilian Quinn Lambert
6. Refuge
7. Doctor&Chiropractor
8. Homework
9. Cleaning
10. Sleep
11. Real food
12. Deb's Birthday
13. Erik&Abigail
14. Shopping
15. Hair
16. Re.Lax.A.Tion.

Attempted:
A lot more than that.

Result:
1. Time management
2. Stress...and then stress relief

The End (:

Well, hello there.

I am in love. Literally, head over heels, and swept of my feet.


I spent time with him today, for the first time in a long time, and basically just had an amazing conversation with him. I learned more about him, and we shared our hearts with each other.


He told me he loved me, with every word that he said, and I can't help but love him back. He's just so attractive.


Its funny that I'm saying this, because every time I manage to spend any amount of quality time with him, I feel this way.  But I always seem to forget. I get distracted, or "busy"....
But he never forgets about me.  I'm always the most important thing in the entire world to him.  That's what every girl dreams of right? Being sought after, and told that they alone are enough to deserve love. And heck, even if we don't deserve it, that "he" THE ONE will love us anyway.  That we don't have to keep looking and longing anymore.


I'm in love; so madly obsessed.


Did I mention his name was....

Messiah
Yahweh

Rescuer

Redeemer

Counselor

Teacher

Yeah. You've probably heard of him. He's kind of a big deal. I'm in love with Jesus.

I should not be blogging write now.

I should be...

• writing a book report
• finishing a work sheet
• studying for an exam
• reading 3847 books
• SLEEPING????

But no. I'm blogging.

And officially saying...
I love my life.  I forget that sometimes.
I need to learn how to step off the roller-coaster.
YAHWEH is always, always good.

I love being blessed.
I love knowing that I am loved, and being able to give love in return.

God blesses me.  I know that this isn't a new thing, I have been blessed all my life. My eyes have been opened.  I can now see visibly his mercies renewed every morning.

My theme song these days!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LB_B7t7OPl4

Wind and Wave Obey the Master

Mark 4:21-41

    ³⁵ On that day, when evening had come, He told them, "Let's cross over to the other side [of the lake]." ³⁶ So they left the crowd and took Him along since He was [already] in the boat. And other boats were with Him. ³⁷ A fierce windstorm arose, and the waves were breaking over the boat, so that the boat was already being swamped. ³⁸ But He was in the stern, sleeping on the cushion. So they woke Him up and said to Him, "Teacher! Don't you care that we're going to die?"

    ³⁹ He got up, rebuked the wind, and said to the sea, "Silence! Be still!" The wind ceased, and there was a great calm. ⁴⁰ Then He said to them, "Why are you fearful? Do you still have no faith?"

    ⁴¹ And they were terrified and asked one another, "Who then is this? Even the wind and the sea obey Him!"

This passage is following me.

Thank you, Merriam-Webster.

Sweetheart

Definition: darling; one who is loved About the word: The Greeks and Egyptians believed the heart was the center of the emotions. English speakers borrowed the idea, and sweet +heart has been a term of endearment – particularly for romantic love – since the Middle Ages.

I forget if I like you or not.

Do you know what I would be really excited for?

Multiple "happy days" in a row.

I haven't had that in a while.

It's not anyone's fault, really.

So. Sometimes I think its mine.

But I don't try to be this way. I just am. I'm me. I forget to smile sometimes.

I wish I was better at emotions. I'm just not. I'm much better with yours, than I am with mine.

• I wish people could understand the way I think. I don't think many people do.
• I wish people would stop assuming they understand the way I think. So many people think they can.

I wish loving someone involved great communication.  I wish I loved to communicate. Because, I don't.

I love to be with people. But mostly, thats because I want to hold your hand. Or, because I'm afraid of being by myself.

I hate being around people. I hate watching people perform there little acts, and I'm the only one who knows your lying. I always know when you're lying. But it doesn't matter until you change.

I wish I had everything I want. I wish I wasn't selfish. But most of all, I wish I wasn't a paradox. 

I am a busy bee.


I had to explain this to a new friend today, "If I never remember anything you ever say, it isn't a lack of my love. Its the lack of my brain."


Maybe, I should figure out what I like to do, before I do all of it. 


Lots of things to do at school. Lots of people I love to talk to. Lots of hobbies I'm in the process of discovering.
What do I have time for?
.0002394%
And that's okay. It forces me to prioritize. 


Hummm... I think I like Jesus the best :)

Suzannah Goerzen.

I love people.
They give me support.
They keep me accountable.
They push me to trust again.
Thank you Simpson University. I've found love :)

Balance. I need it.

I haven't been blogging.
I haven't been on Facebook.
I haven't been texting.
BUT, I still love you.
So keep trying :)
You know who you are.

January 24, 2011

Today I am weary.  I am in need of rest.

God, who searches my soul still finds joy.

Today I am weakened by the weight of the world.

But His yoke is easy, and His burden is light.

He gives me rest.

Yesterday, I would have been downcast by the trials of this world.

Today I can see that my Father gives me endurance and patience.

"For Attractive lips, speak words of kindness.

For lovely eyes, seek out the good in people. 

For a slim figure, share your food with the hungry.

For beautiful hair, let a child run their fingers through it once a day. 

For poise, walk with the knowledge that you never walk alone."

~Audrey Hepburn

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ps5-fIiOoNA

Praise the Lord, oh my soul,

And let all that's within me praise His name.

Praise the Lord, oh my soul,

And let all that's within me praise His name.

Praise the Lord, oh my soul,

And let all that's within me praise His name.

Praise the Lord, oh my soul,

And let all that's within me praise His name.

For I will not die, I will live,

And I will tell of the Works of the Lord

And sing of His wonders.

I will not die, I will live.

I will not die, I will live,

'Cause He's a great God.

He's a great God.

And I get to love You through whatever comes.

What a privilege

That I get to love You through whatever comes.

Oh, how sweet it is,

That I get to love You through whatever comes.

What a privilege it is

That I get to love You through whatever comes.

Oh, how sweet it is.

And nothing's gonna take Your praise out of my mouth

As long as I shall live,

As long as I shall live.

Oh, nothing's gonna take Your praise out of my mouth

As long as I shall live,

As long as I shall live.

And I will not die, I will live,

I will not die, I will live.

For I will not die, I will live,

And I will tell of the Works of the Lord,

I will sing of His wonders.

For I will not die, I will live,

For I will not die, I will live.

I will not die, I will live,

Oh, I will not die, I will live.

And nothing's gonna take Your praise out of my mouth

As long as I shall live,

As long as I shall live.

Oh, nothing's gonna take Your praise out of my mouth

As long as I shall live,

As long as I shall live,

'Cause He's a great God.

He's a great God.

You're a great God.

You're a great God. 

This is my church.

Day 2.

Wow. So, I might be taking on a lot this semester. Which, I gotta say, I love. I just may not have time to...eat? sleep? Basically the optional parts of my life must decrease in amount and frequency.

Adding to my list from yesterday...

This semester I will be:

1. Reading almost the entire Old Testament.
2. Reading every theological book ever written.
3. Giving a 20 minute presentation in class (Engaging Theology).
4. Learning to play the guitar.
5. Attempting to understand the complexity that is Dr. Slain.

So, not a big deal.

Day 1.

First day of classes.

Second Semester, Sophomore.

I am determined to love the next four months of my life.  I have decided that they will be beneficial, enjoyable, and full of growth.  I have decided to leave my heart open, for God's hand.

What I will be doing this semester:

1. Reading A LOT.
2. Writing in response to number 1.
3. Memorizing EVERYTHING.
4. Eating healthy.
5. Exercising.
6. Joining a small group (with my RA Jessica:).
7. Being an active member of The Bridge ministry.
8. Finding time to sleep...?
9. Learning (LEARNLEARNLEARN!)

I want to be a light.

SU! January 10, 2011

Back in Redding!

Ready to start classes....kind of.
Ready to hang out with the friends I missed.
Ready to stay healthy.
Ready to get lots of sleep....(hahahahaha)
Ready to love Jesus.

Dear Turtlini :)

So, I'd like to let you know that you're my brown eyed girl.


  Forever and always because you made a rebel of a careless


 mans careful daughter.  Love will hold us together now that


 we're stuck like glue because of those summer nights where


 we tried defying gravity.  Instead we ended up free falling 


and because we learned not to stop believing.  I'd run to you just 


to see you smile♥

Love, Penguino :)

I am a purple panda bear!

Because Momma Sherwood said so!

January 2, 2011

God has changed so much in me. 

Last year I was a different person. This year I am made new.

¹ The Spirit of the Sovereign LORD is on me, 
   because the LORD has anointed me 
   to proclaim good news to the poor. 
He has sent me to bind up the brokenhearted, 
   to proclaim freedom for the captives 
   and release from darkness for the prisoners,^[a] 
2 to proclaim the year of the LORD’s favor 
   and the day of vengeance of our God, 
to comfort all who mourn, 
 ³ and provide for those who grieve in Zion— 
to bestow on them a crown of beauty 
   instead of ashes, 
the oil of joy 
   instead of mourning, 
and a garment of praise 
   instead of a spirit of despair. 
They will be called oaks of righteousness, 
   a planting of the LORD 
   for the display of his splendor.

~Isaiah 61:1-3

I am not perfect.

I will rejoice in what He has done for me.

"All this pain
I wonder if I’ll even find my way
I wonder if my life could really change at all
All this earth
Could all that is lost ever be found
Could a garden come up from this ground at all

You make beautiful things
You make beautiful things out of the dust
You make beautiful things
You make beautiful things out of us

You make me new, You are making me new

You make me new, You are making me new

You make beautiful things
You make beautiful things out of the dust
You make beautiful things
You make beautiful things out of us"

~Gungor, "Beautiful Things"

I want to be in love. I want to be in love with my Savior.

My heart has been captured, and this time I will only reap blessings. This time, I will lay my crowns at the feet of the King of Kings.

I would like to go here; I would like to go to Seattle.

I have big dreams, and I have big doubts.

God has big plans for me.